Saturday, December 29, 2007

2008 Calendar

I suffer from a peculiar form of commitment-phobia: I am terrified of choosing a calendar. I'm going to be stuck with it on my wall for an entire year - what if I hate it? What if the picture for July is terrible? What if it doesn't give the exact time of the full moon?

Yeah, I have issues.

Because of this bizarre indecisiveness I have bought the same calendar for the last several years. I find the nearest calendar retailer, purchase The Witches Calendar, and go home again. I like the pictures, the essays can be interesting, and it's nice to know exactly what sign the moon is in.

None of this stops me from looking at other calendars, however. There are so many of them out there, and all of them so lovely! One year (was it 2003?) I got daring. I saw a calendar themed around my favorite graphic novel (The Sandman, by Neil Gaiman) and couldn't resist. The pictures were lovely, but I suffered terrible withdrawal from my usual source of detailed astrological information, interesting tidbits, and the all important daily color. The next year, I returned to The Witches Calendar, humbled and contrite.

(Now might be the time to admit that I can't even read the astrological information. I only recognize the symbols for a handful of zodiac signs and none of the planets. Take away my witching license if you must, but never let it be said that I mislead you!)

Thus I was in the grocery store yesterday morning and found myself browsing the calendar racks, admiring the pretty pictures but not planning to buy. I looked over and saw one called "Lunaria 2008: Lunar Almanac." My curiosity piqued, I picked it up. Lo and behold, this calendar is divided into lunar cycles. Each page begins with a new moon, but the traditional dates are still listed. Not only does it include more astrological information than the Witches Calendar, it even summarizes it briefly (ex: "expression enhances change"). It tells what time the moon sets and rises, and includes sunrise and sunset on Sundays, quarter, and cross-quarter days. It is printed on recycled paper with vegetable ink. The only way this calendar could be made better is if the times were in Eastern instead of Mountain, and the sunrise/sunset times weren't calculated for CO, but that is a small, niggling complaint.

I very nearly squee-ed in the grocery store.

I will miss the colorful pictures and (occasionally) nifty essays, but this calendar is so much more interesting. I can't wait to live a whole year so deeply in tune with the moon! As a very moon-oriented person, this can only be a good thing.

Friday, December 21, 2007

Winter Solstice 2007

We have now embarked upon the longest night of the year, a time of deep introspection and quiet, a time to reflect upon where we have been and where we are going. For the first time ever, I will be keeping vigil for the sun, and I'm looking forward to it. Most of the night will be spent on far more prosaic activities than silent contemplation, but I do hope to do some of that as well.

When the sun returns tomorrow morning, it will usher in the commercial/secular holidays with family. Parents will arrive, cooking will begin in earnest, and soon gifts will be exchanged after lengthy meals.

Hopefully I will find more time to post in the new year! In the meantime, check out the pagan rewrite of "In the Bleak Midwinter" at Joanna Powell Colbert's blog. There's even an MP3 in case you forgot the tune!

In the meantime, a blessed solstice night to you all!

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

So much to say, so little brain to say it with

I have so much to say, but so little mental capacity with which to say it. The December New Moon ritual was just as good as, if not better than, the November one. I haven't felt such wonderful energy during a ritual since college, and am ecstatic to have found this group.

Speaking of the New Moon, my task for this moon cycle is to learn how to be at home within myself, so that I can be at home wherever I may go. This is a major challenge for me, so I am look forward to it almost as much as I dread figuring out how to do it! First step is to turn one of my acorns into a pendant. If that works, I will try to take pictures....

My Free Will Astrology horoscope for this week is interesting:

CANCER (June 21-July 22): Are your cohorts looking at you quizzically, wondering why you seem so energized from exploring the shadowy, off-limits places? I'll offer some suggestions about what you could say to them. First, try to make them see that until you've risked going too far, you may not know when to stop. Second, tell them that you suspect there are healthy desires buried at the roots of your dark feelings, and you're hoping to free them. Third, explain to them that you're not picking at your scabs in order to prolong your hurt, but rather to better understand the hurt. If those rationales are too subtle for your companions to understand, cackle softly and say that you just need to be a little bad in order to give your goodness more soul.

I feel that this relates to my impending graduation in some way. Friday is my last day of class, and the graduation recognition ceremony is on Sunday.

Monday, December 3, 2007

The spirits, they are silly

Do other people get messages from the spirits in bizarre and ridiculous ways, or is it just me?

I woke up this morning with the following lyrics stuck in my head

"Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
is the one thing you can't see.
Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon.
Just when I thought our chance had passed
you went and saved the best for last."

Not terribly spiritual, right? Just a pop song that I was attached to in high school (it reflected my love life rather well, except for the bit where the song eventually got the guy).

Well, I was walking through the snow to get back to my car after an appointment, and started singing to myself. And then it all became clear. My panic about having to have an honest to goodness real full-time professional job.... it'll be ok. I can't see it now, but I *will* find what I need there.

And then, for the kicker, I briefly (just for a split second) visualized my spirit friends hooked arm in arm and swaying as they sang along with me. Considering that only two of them are even vaguely humanoid, this was quite a ridiculous sight. Though not as bad as the time they showed up in matching scarves and sunglasses (one of them knits).

Anyway, I think this may well qualify for "Most Bizarre Communication from Spirit Ever." Feel free to share your own nominations for the title.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Silence Between Breathes

This is the quiet time. The dark time. The empty time of waiting that must come before I can be refilled. My soul screams for respite and solitude while my mind shudders at the thought of isolation in this desolate season. The Outside World demands that I work full throttle to finish this semester, but my being rebels. This is the season of Isa, rune of stillness. Rune of silence. Rune of the cold center where we must go to rest. I am tantalized by the promise of it's embrace. I need to be emptied so that I can be replenished with something far more nourishing. I need to stop long enough to be remade in my own image.

There are several passages from Seasons of the Witch which call to me at this moment. All of them are too long to type out here, but I will type one of them out anyway.

In the center of every forest is a well of sweet water. By the time you reach it, you will be desperate with thirst. You will have been walking through the day and into the night, and the woods will have been growing darker around you, and you will have seen no water at all.

And then, a clearing lit by silver light.

You do not see her standing in the shadows. You cup your shaking hands and dip into the well. But a bony hand grasps yours.

Shaken with surprise, you look up.

She is veiled. From beneath the veil she speaks. Her voice is full of the mystery of endings. She asks what you want.

Water, you begin to say.

Then your heart is flooded with memory and need. You remember losses and pain, driven days when you burned with yearning, bleak hopelessness of abandoned dreams. Your parched throat will not let you speak. And there is not time enough to answer, for what you desire has become immeasurably and inexpressibly vast.

She is waiting.

You stand worldless before her.

She opens her arms to you, and suddenly she is all that you desire: arms to hold you, a breast to weep upon, a murmuring voice to sing in your ear, a softness that is more comforting than you have ever known.

She is sweet water in the dark forest. She is abandoned reams restored. She is all the world at once,, and all the time you need.

After reading that the other day, I was moved to write the following:

Isa is the answer that comes when you stop asking the question. Only when you have ceased your restless searching can she come to you, in the stillness of waiting without expectation. Only when you can sit with What Is can What Will Be reveal itself to you, in all of her splendor, in all of her glory.

Not as powerful as the inspiration, but that is what I pray for with every breath right now. The strength to sit without expectation, knowing that the truth and beauty will be revealed.

Now is the time of the silence between breathes. May I learn to sit here patiently.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Shopping Pilgrimage

Since it was a holiday week-end, I decided to take a day off to relax and go visit my local area-of-many-witchy-stores. It only takes me an hour to get there, but I hadn't been in more than a year.

In addition to the little spell candles I was looking for (you know the ones -- they're less than an inch thick, come in every color of the rainbow, and burn down quickly) I found two books. I tend to be overly picky about pagan books, as there is so much shallow garbage out there, so I was a bit surprised to find two books that called to me. One is The Heart of Wicca, which I've heard good things about. While I don't identify as Wiccan, I am certainly Wicca-derived, and it should be very interesting to read a treatise on the deeper aspects of that path.

The other - and far more surprising - book is Seasons of the Witch by Patricia Monaghan. I first picked it up hoping for something about the wheel of the year, and found a volume of poetry oriented to the turning seasons. I was wary at first, but the poetry is good. I mean really, actually, truly good. I'm still amazed by that, which I find sort of sad. I mean, pagans are a talented, creative bunch; why I am so surprised to find a really good book of Goddess poetry? Is it that the loudest, most visible pagans also tend to be the least well-developed, and thus produce half-baked work, while those who allow their craft to mature and develop tend to keep to themselves more? That's the most likely explanation that I can think of.

I strive to someday contribute to the body of work produced by the latter group. I can only hope that I will be as successful!

Friday, November 23, 2007

Where's a ritual when you need one?

I need a ritual. Since the pagan internet is so very huge, you wouldn't think this would be a problem. Why, we must have a ritual for anything!

Except we don't. If you want to celebrate a Sabbat, any phase of the moon, a birth, death, or wedding, then you're all set. There are thousands of those to be had. But what if you need to mark a transition in your life, need to do something ritually to commemorate what is happening, but the occasion isn't one of the Major Ritual Occasions? It's time for some pagan ingenuity!

I seem to be lacking in that department right now.

In less than a month, I will finish graduate school. In less than a month I will be transitioning into the adult world of full time employment (or at least looking for such). And I am, in a word, terrified. Soul-numbingly afraid. I need to *do* something with this. I don't want a spell -- I feel this way for a reason, and I'm going to need to work through it -- but I do need to mark this is some way, ease my transition..... reassure myself that this is not, in fact, a tragic catastrophe (please don't ask why I feel that way, as I'm not sure myself).

I can't be the first person to need such a ritual. And while I never use one that someone else has written, I would like to see what others have done, to provide some much needed inspiration. I guess I'll have to keep looking.....

Wednesday, November 21, 2007


Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I'll be having the obligatory family dinner, though I can't say I am looking forward to it. This is one holiday I've never been able to get into, and it hasn't improved since I stopped eating meat. Plus, I'm hypoglycemic, which means that I need to eat small frequent meals with a good mix of carbs, fats, and protein - the exact opposite of Thanksgiving without the turkey. So I'll feel like crap withint an hour of finishing the meal.

Aside from the dietary problems, I just feel like it's the wrong time for this. The real harvest was at Mabon -- there's not a whole lot still growing right now. And in my little self-made tradition the time between Samhain and Yule is dead time, neither part of the old year nor of the year to come. That doesn't exactly lend itself to a celebratory feeling.

Sorry for whining. I'm in a bit of a crummy mood, but I'll try to have actual content next time ;-) But for everyone who likes the holiday, happy Thanksgiving!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Altar moved

I finally brought my altar inside this evening. I will probably be bringing in more bits and pieces for a few weeks, but at least I've got the essentials taken care of.

It's nice to have the altar where I can see it more frequently. It is now in the same room as my computer and all of my craft supplies, so I'll have far more opportunities to see it and be reminded of Spirit. I'm glad of that. Of course, in a few months I won't ever be home during the day again, but that's a subject for another day.

I had a really wonderful week-end, so I'm going to try to focus on the happy vibes, and maybe ignore my worries for a little while. :-)

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Altar problems

When I moved into my current apartment in May, the enclosed front porch seemed like the perfect location for my altar. It was out of the way, had a beautiful view of the moon most nights, and let me feel more connected to nature than if I were entirely inside. Since the windows faced east, the morning sun would keep it warm enough that, with a warm coat or robe of some sort, I would be able to keep up my daily practice through the winter. Such a nice theory.... The reality is that it is only mid-November and I already can't spend more than five minutes out there before my fingers start to get too stiff and cold to move.

This leaves me with a bit of a problem. I can bring the altar inside, but there really isn't anywhere convenient to put it. I might be able to find space in the dining room, but that's hardly out of the way, and I'd worry that my pet rat would wreak havoc on it when I let him out to frolic. Plus, I would have to move the altar when my parents came over (My mother is alright with my path, but my father and I have only achieved peace by carefully avoiding the subject). The bedroom might be a possibility, but that would require a lot of rearranging.

I could just set up a small shrine indoors for me to do my daily activities, and then do full rituals on the porch. This would mean remembering to move all of the appropriate tools outside with me whenever I did ritual. Since I have enough trouble remembering to bring out the rose oil that I use (it was solidifying in this cold), I somehow doubt that I will have an easier time with additional tools. Plus, I'd really miss working at my altar every day.

I'm leaning towards bringing the whole thing inside. I could even make the biannual altar moving a part of my seasonal transitions... take it in after Samhain, and back out again at the vernal equinox, perhaps. I'm just a bit irritated, as I really like my current set up. Ah well. The weather doesn't really care what I want, nor should it.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Group ritual: the verdict

After all of my angst, the ritual was wonderful. It was apparently a smaller group than is usually present, but that's fine by me. I don't do well in large groups anyway, so this was a lovely introduction to their ritual practices.

The ritual style was very participatory, which I like. For instance, I tend to be put off by lengthy, scripted invocations of the elements, so I really appreciated their "speak and gesture as the spirit moves you" approach. And there was free-form chanting/singing with percussion. Which happens to be a critical part of my personal practice. Joy!

Not only was the ritual very much in line with my personal practice, but the people themselves seemed very nice. There didn't seem to be any of the ego trips or other unpleasant social dynamics that I was afraid of. And it didn't feel like an episode of "You Had to Be There", either, which is something that I've experienced in my past forays into the world of Other Pagans.

I'm probably not being entirely coherent, but suffice it to say that I had a wonderful time, and will definitely be returning next month!

Friday, November 9, 2007

Group ritual, at long last

I'm actually going to a group ritual tonight.

This is a big deal for me. Since college, my tentative forays into the land of pagan groups have been unsuccessful and few. One problem is that I actually prefer celebrating the full moons and most Sabbats by myself. Another is that I have about 68,000 pagan pet peeves, which means that it's unlikely that any group will live up to my exacting standards (I'm not proud of this, but I have to accept that it's true before I can try to change my perceptions). Plus, I'm terribly shy, a bit of a homebody, and afraid of being rejected by the local pagans (it only happened once, but I seem to have been more burned by the experience than I thought). But the truth is, I'm lonely.

I found out about this particular group in June. I was very excited because I've always been a fan of the Reclaiming tradition, and didn't know there were any such groups on the east coast. Plus, they meet on the new moon, which is a time which I only celebrate intermittently, so it won't mean missing out on the ritual that *I* want to do. I really wanted to go, but it seemed like every celebration fell on a day that was physically impossible for me; my parents were coming up, or my friends were visiting from far away, or I had a major paper due the next day.... And I'm sure that I also missed a few on the grounds that I was too tired/stressed/busy/nervous/pick-you-own-excuse. When the e-mail for this months ritual came around, I decided to bite the bullet and go. I'll never actually want to put myself in a situation where I'm surrounded by strangers, so I need to stop waiting for the perfect moment and just do it. And thus I shall.

I pray to the Gods that I am able to keep an open mind tonight, and maybe find some of the community I've been longing for.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Free Will Astrology

I'm not normally a big believer in horoscopes (I enjoy astrology, but find the idea that my month/week/day will be identical to everyone else with my sun sign a bit far fetched). This does not stop me from loving Rob Brezsny's Free Will Astrology, however. His weekly horoscopes are part poetry, part inspiration, and only part prediction.

For instance, this is what just arrived in my in-box:

CANCER (June 21-July 22): Though Wales is at the same latitude as Siberia, it's free of frigid tundra. Still, its climate isn't exactly balmy. Cool, cloudy, damp days are common. That's why Welsh horticulturalists cheered with shocked exultation last summer, when three outdoor banana plants produced fruit at the National Botanical Garden. It was an unprecedented miracle. I predict a comparable development for you, Cancerian. A source that has never been more than lukewarm will get downright tropical. An influence that has been inhospitable to your passion will become fertile and welcoming. As a result, you will bloom in a way you never have before.

If you ignore the implications of global warming, that horoscope is downright inspiring. I can only hope that it holds a kernel of truth for the coming week. I had a completely unexpectedly wonderful day at work today, so it's certainly getting off on the right foot!

Sunday, November 4, 2007

Samhain Altar

Unfortunately, none of the photos I took immediately after the ritual came out, so this actually the altar as it looked this morning. All that's missing is my chalice (in the kitchen to be washed) and the offerings dish (already taken outside). I intend to post pictures of my altar is its regular state eventually, so I will limit myself to discussing those aspects of the layout that were unique to this Sabbat.

The small string of beads with skeletons at the ends which is hanging off of the left side of the wooden stand in the back represents my link to my ancestors, and was made for Samhain 2006. Propped up against that same wooden object is a card depicting Persephone. I don't work with Persephone officially, but I have been drawn to her from time to time, and I thought that picture eloquently summed up the emotions behind this Sabbat. Particularly the darkness which I am experiencing this year.... My usual white candles have been replaced by black.

This little display was on the left side of my altar. The antler, which always sits there, was a gift from a friend. It was particularly appropriate for this ritual, as I met the Wild God in my journey (more on that later). The stone skull was purchased in Salem last year, while I collected the squirrel paw, sparrow skull, and sparrow claws this past winter. Yes, I got them myself, from road kill. Since I am a vegetarian, this was particularly difficult for me to do, but I thought it important that I gather them myself, and deal with the death first hand. I wanted the squirrel skull, too, but that was a bit too much for me.

The ritual itself was very healing. I've been struggling with a recurrence of depression lately, and I was able to make peace with that part of myself. At least temporarily, I found myself able to see the role it has served in my life, the gifts it has brought me, and the way it has led me to the path I am currently walking. That peace didn't really last, but I know that I have the seed within me.

As for meeting the Wild God.... My practice has become rather goddess-centric in the last few years, and I was getting hints that Someone would be showing up soon to fix this imbalance of mine. I was open to the experience, so I waited patiently. During the full moon a week or so ago, I was scrying with my quartz ball and saw an animal (could have been a fox, a coyote, or even a deer), and immediately thought "the Wild God". So I wasn't entirely surprised to encounter a greenman with antlers when I did my shamanic style journeying on Samhain. I know what he wants from me now, and that I will be working with him extensively in the future.

Sunday, October 28, 2007


The time of Samhain is approaching.

I love this holiday, both in it's sacred aspect and the secular celebration of Halloween. It's a time of darkness, but with the knowledge that dark does not mean bad. It is only an absence of light. For a little while we can wear our fears and laugh at the darkness, knowing that it is a part of us whether we accept it or not, and so we might as well accept it.

This is a time of death, both physical and metaphorical. Last year I was drawn to honor the ancestors and collect bones. This year I am being told to explore my own interior darkness, and perhaps shine a light onto some old demons. So I try to let myself sit with the darkness, and I wait.

In spite -- or perhaps because -- of this, I find myself oddly apathetic this year. For the first time that I can remember, I'm not looking forward to either Samhain or Halloween. This month has been riddled with obstacles for me, and now I'm just tired. I've decided to take November 1 off, to spend the whole day in ritual (and the preparation thereof). It's decadent, but I think I need this. I need something to rejuvinate me, and maybe show me a light at the end of this dark night of the soul.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007


I've been thinking about pagan ethics lately, and particularly forgiveness. Starhawk claims that forgiveness isn't a pagan value, and on the surface she seems to be right. But my heart disagrees.

Forgiveness isn't about not bringing rapists to justice. It isn't about letting people walk all over you. Forgiveness means that after a certain amount of time, you try to let it go. It means choosing (or trying to choose-- forgiveness can be difficult) not to carry anger and resentment.

On the other hand, anyone who claims that you have to forgive someone in order to prove yourself as a spiritually evolved human being is full of shit. Nobody can tell you when it's time to forgive something, if ever.

Even more important than forgiving others is forgiving ourselves. Ours is a religion without sin, and supposedly without guilt, and I am beginning to wonder if this might actually hurt us, in some ways. Despite our best intentions, we will make mistakes. We all do; it's part of being human. Yes, we should try to learn from them, but tormenting yourself every time you accidentally through out a glass bottle instead of recycling it doesn't do anybody any favors. And many of us will do that, rehashing every minor mistake, reliving them in our minds. That doesn't help us to grow, except in neurosis.

So what do we do, when our religion does not recognize this problem? In The Circle Within, Dianne Sylvan suggests calling on the compassion of the gods, remembering that you are a child of the God/dess. Personally, I find that to be a lovely, if difficult, solution. And since I'm not exploring spirituality for the easy answers it might give me, that satisfies my problem on a personal level.

I've seen pagans argue that our gods are not the compassionate types, and hold us to the highest standards. I disagree. As humans, we will make mistakes. We aren't here to be perfect; we're here to learn and love and grow. And I can't bring myself to believe in a deity who is not wise enough or generous enough to recognize that basic truth.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Rant Cancelled

I had a rather substantive post half written, but then I took a walk and realized that it would have to wait.

Right now in New England, it is a sunny day in the low 80s. This is either a sign of the coming apocalypse of global warming, or else New England being its usual unpredictable self, or possibly both. But at the same time, today is the first day that I've really noticed the fall foliage. Thus far I have been disappointed by the display, but today..... Today I am just blown away by how beautiful everything can be, even so close to the city. The yellows are brilliant, the oranges a rusty perfection. The reds are still a bit lacking, but they are starting to come out. There are finally enough fallen leaves to make a satisfying crunch when you walk down the sidewalk.

If it were ten to fifteen degrees cooler, it would be the archetypal autumn day. Even so, it really puts life into perspective, so that my rants seem less pressing. This is what this spirituality is all about. The singular power of nature, the great manifestation of the Lady I worship, and of many other gods and goddesses.

I even found the most perfect leaf as I walked back: a tiny maple leaf, a perfect rusty orange with a yellow center and red tips. I'm keeping it as a reminder of the healing power of taking a walk.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Struggles of the Spirit, Part 1

Last week I went to my local library in search of some spiritual autobiographies. There's nothing better than reading the words of someone who has come before, struggled with the same problems we all face, and recorded that process for the rest of us. I learn more about how to live from one book of reading personal essays than from ten so-called self-help books.

The problem is, there don't seem to be any by pagans. I'm sure that I'm wrong, and that there a few out there, but the problem still stands; we as a religion are not creating that literature of the heart. My dream is to someday help fill that hole, but in the meantime, I need something to read. Thus, I find myself reading the works of Madeleine L'Engle and Anne Lamott, both devout Christians. However much the particulars of our religions differ, their words still ring true for me, and I am immensely grateful for that. But it has led me to wonder why I make things so much more difficult for myself by adhering to such a young, marginal religion.

I'm not one of those pagans who hates Christianity. In fact, I think it is a beautiful religion, filled with rich truth. But it is not my truth. When I look at the world I perceive a great unifying spirit, yes, but also countless others, all derived from the same source yet each independent and unique. And while I sense the power and mystery behind that Great Spirit, I cannot relate to it. I'm not even sure that it has a consciousness, as such, or if that Great Spirit is simply the force that flows through all of creation, be it human, tree, or deity. I suspect that one of the goals of meditation is to quiet yourself until you can feel that resonance that connects you to everything else..... but that's about the only way you can directly relate to something that large and amorphous. I need something more personal.

I need something more physical, too. If I sense the sacred in the trees and the air, in the ocean and in candle flame, then are those not sacred as well? I can not bring myself to believe that this life is just a trial, a practice session for something else. Life itself, with all of it's physicality and messiness, is the great gift of spirit.

Truthfully, I don't think I could follow any organized religion. I seem to have a deep need to discover the mysteries in my own way. That doesn't mean I won't or can't learn from others, but I could not let someone else explore for me, and then expect me to take their word about what they found. I have to forge ahead on my own, and I have rarely found myself on the well-trodden and accepted paths. Though I admit that I sometimes envy those who do; it must make life so much easier.

All of these arguments are moot, of course. I am pagan because that is my path, and I am not Christian because it is not my path. Neither is better than the other, and each are beautiful. I just wish that more people would write about the struggles of life from the perspective of paganism. If paganism can even be said to have one perspective..... but that is a topic for another post.

Who am I?

I suppose that, if I intend to share my spiritual wanderings with others, I should begin with an introduction. But what to tell? I am a solitary pagan, and have been since the summer of 2000, when I turned 18. In college, I would occasionally celebrate with my friends, but I've always enjoyed the freedom of the solitary to discover what works best for me, testing new ideas and techniques against my own experience. When I left college I also left behind the only pagans I've ever been able to truly share with, which makes my path more lonely than I would like. It's frustrating; I prefer to do ritual alone, so I have trouble getting to know other pagans, so I don't have anyone to talk to locally when I find myself stuck, or confused, or just needing to share.

I won't try to list all of the sources that influence my spirituality right now. There are too many to list in one post, and I imagine that they will become clear with time.

I'm not out to set myself up as an expert on anything. I'm just one little pagan, walking my path as best I can.