I'd never seen a full lunar eclipse before, so I had no idea what to expect, either spiritually or visually. As it turns out, the energy of this eclipse was just what I needed to reinforce some changes that I've been needing to make. I've known for some time now that too much of my life is lived out of fear. I was constrained by it on all sides, and it kept me locked in a tiny box, where I was miserable and frustrated. I hated it. It's not that I was afraid of any particular fate -- I was just afraid to live. Afraid that if I stopped being afraid, I'd be ambushed by... something.
That's no way to live, and I used last night's energy to put it behind me (though I did originally type that paragraph in the present tense -- I'm still learning!). During the ritual/spellwork that I performed before my trip, I realized that I need to reach out towards that which I love, and I am reaffirming that now. I have to ask myself in every situation "What would love have me do?," by which I mean "Where does my heart point? Where would my bliss lead me?" It's a difficult transition, but I want to be committed this time. Gods help me, but I need to do this.
My ritual was very simple, requiring only my cauldron, a match, paper, and pencils (if you've been a practicing pagan for more than six months, you can probably guess where this is going). I sat on my enclosed front porch and gazed up at the sky as the moon slowly shrank away, and I contemplated the earth standing between sun and moon, blocking the light's radiance from illuminating that silvery orb. I descended into a light trance, and met with the figure of the earth, who spoke to me in an Irish accent. She told me that she was darkening the moon to allow us to gaze upon her more fully, and that I was cast off that which was blocking me from fully dancing with life. I saw that my fear was the problem, and came out of the trance enough to write that down on the paper, with heavy intent. I lit the cauldron, and threw my fear into it. I felt so light and free, watching it burn away! I created a talisman to enforce the changes I need to bring into my life - the way I need to throw myself into that which I love, and let it infuse me.
Oh, and visually? The moon was beautiful. Watching as the light shrank to a tiny slivery, illuminating a perfect sphere of smokey quartz, fading to rose.... it was a powerful experience, one which I hope not to forget any time soon.
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Oh, yes, indeed, it was beautiful! What a wonderful sight...I had never seen a full eclipse either. My coven and I sat outside and watched most of it until we got way chilly and went inside for the ritual. I'm very glad the eclipse's energy brought you such insight!
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